Saat Ini.

Aku duduk termenung...

Sengaja kubiarkan fikiran ini melayang jauh-jauh. Ke masa hadapan... Yang kadang terasa dekat amat, dan kali lain pula seakan cuma mimpi yang tak tergapai. Aku mahu jadi orang tersohor, bergaji paling kurang lima angka, berumahkan istana idaman berkereta bagak mendabik dada berjalan di tengak awam. Kerana pentingnya aku seorang insan yang sangat signifikan dalam masyarakat. Muka hadapan akhbar saban hari seperti album gambar peribadiku.

Lalu fikiran ini membuat aku gentar. Bagaimana jika berlaku sesuatu di tengah jalan, tak terduga tak bertanda. Muncul menghancur cita, merobek mimpi-mimpi indah masa yang bakal. Wah, menarik! Aku takut kehilangan perkara yang belum pasti pun kan kukecap. WAJARKAH AKU MENCARI-CARI BERMIMPI KESENANGAN AKAN DATANG?

Boleh jadi saja satu apapun yang kuangan-angankan tak jadi milikku. Mungkin sebelum langsung ketermenungan ini jantungku tak lagi berdegup.


Aku duduk termenung mengenang kisah silam. Salah silapku yang tak terkira. Ratusan ribu hati yang terguris terluka dek pancungan lidah tanpa panduan akal. Berapa tubuh yang menderita penangan kaki tanganku yang tak mengenal ihsan bila merah segalanya dek api marah dendam iri hati tak berkesudahan. Siapalah aku untuk merubah semua ini. Layakkah aku bergelar insan baik-baik yang kadang-kadang hilang muncul didepan belakangku. Mungkinkah keinginan ini untuk berubah hanya alasan sekali lagi mainan mindaku sendiri untuk memperbodohkan diri ini yang selalu tertipu dengan air mata palsu. Esok akan kubuat lagi. MANA AKHIRNYA? Perubahan itu wujudkah dan bolehkah?


Lalu kusedar masa ini detik ini ketika ini, ini saja yang mampu kukerah kudratku untuk bertindak. Kuarah mindaku untuk berfikir. Kudesak hatiku untuk sabar dan ikhlas. Hati dan diri liar ini jika tidak kuikat dengan panduan lembaran Sang Pencipta, nescaya akan teruuuussss jauh, dan jauh. Yang lalu usah dikenang berlebih-lebihan. Yang bakal tiba usah dirisau melampau-lampau. Sehingga hilang sedar jalan bengkok yang kulalui ini tersasar dari kebenaran kehendak kemahuan kehidupan sebenar. Mana jalannya? Mana jalan-Nya?

Keluarga, rakan, sahabat seperjuangan. Selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin. Dari diri yang lemah ini semoga kita temui jalan-Nya.

What's Life to You?

Life as I see it, is a chain of events arranged to create a story. A story that can be remembered or looked backed upon, but can never be relived or repeated. The flow just moves on and on without me being able to control what happens and which way it'll go. Well, maybe I do have a say to a certain extend on which route it takes and decisions that I make, but still most of them are out of my control.

Even the decisions that I made, was made without really knowing what will happen afterwards. The future will just come as it may. There're just too many uncertainties to look at it from afar and be a mastermind of my own life and control the outcomes to my liking. It just won't happen. Well that's what I think.

How about you?

Revolusion

No, this post a not about overthrowing government, or creating chaos, or upholding a new belief or idea. This post is about Ramadhan Revolution. A journey to revolutionise our mind and body. InsyaAllah in a few days the month of Ramadhan is starting. Are we ready? Am I ready? Will this year be different from the past years? Is Ramadhan this time around going to be filled with beneficial activities to rejuvenate our minds and souls? To purify our hearts?

Pray to Allah that we will be able to meet the month of Ramadhan and make full use of its presence. As a muslim, what other time there is to change for the better? When everyone around you will strive to maximise the use of time for ibadah and purifying our hearts?

Have you ever thought of changing a bad habit that you have? Now is the time.

Don't you think it's time to move the Quran from the shelves to our tongue and hearts? Now is the time.

Have you been longing to stop excessively waste time on games, computers, hanging out, comics, shopping, etc? Now is the time.

Are you a smoker? You know what I'm about to say... Now is the time.

Want to lose a few kilos? Now is the time.

Whatever we want to do to improve ourselves... NOW IS THE TIME. It may not be easy, but there's  no harm in trying. For a muslim should always strive to be better :).

But in the end. The success in Ramadhan does not only depends on what we are able to do and perform during the month, but how we are able to change what we do in the other 11 months afterwards, before the coming of the next Ramadhan (insyaAllah).

May Allah gives us strength to achieve what we want from this month which is full of barakah.

End of Year 3

Alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah... alhamdulillah...
The highest and enormous praise to Allah, as He is the master of all sevants and without Him and His mercy I would certainly not be here where I am today, and you will not be there in front of the computer reading this humble post.

Yesterday the results of my final exams for my 3rd year of Medicine came out, and I passed my exams. Finishing this project I'm currently working on will mark the end of this chapter of my life as a 3rd year medical student in Leeds.

Congratulations to all who managed to achieve what they intended to get, who passed and also those who tried their best but Allah had different plans for them, and tests them more. Hopefully in whichever situation we are in, we will manage to get the best out of it, as the prophet Muhammad SAW said;

“Sangat mengagumkan kepada seorang mukmin, sebab segala keadaannya untuk ia sangat baik, dan tidak mungkin terjadi demikian kecuali bagi seorang mukmin: jika mendapat nikmat ia bersyukur, maka syukur itu sangat baik baginya dan bila menderita kesusahan ia bersabar, maka sabar itu lebih baik baginya.” (Hadis riwayat Muslim)

Why are you not choosing?

Rasulullah SAW said:
"Each of you is leader and every one of you will be asked about his leadership. Imam is a leader and will be asked about his leadership, husband is a leader and will be asked about his leadership, women leaders in her home and will be asked about hes leadership, those with wealth is the leader of the property entrusted to him and he will be asked about his leadership. Each of you is leader and you will be asked about your leadership. " (Hadis Riwayat al-Bukhari, Muslim, Abu Daud, al-Tirmizi dan Ahmad)

I'm 23. The 'included' age (in term of voting in Malaysia). Where my views matter in the choosing of leaders of Malaysia. The power to vote is entrusted upon my shoulder and thousands other peers. I am excited and looking forward to actually vote if I have the chance to. It is a big responsibility to vote. Especially when you vote with awareness of the actual issues and awareness of what each sides have to offer to the country, not just by taking in what the media asks you to vote, or what your parents are voting. We are given the right to do it, because we are deemed to have the capacity to weigh up all the pros and cons, and really make an "informed consent" on who should be leading our belover country.

No this post is not intended to be in favour of any particular political party. As I believe there are enough blogs out there to read about those kind of things, where is even sometimes gets so messy that I can't even comprehend what the actually have in mind. Or it might just be me who thought that writers should have something, an idea of some sort to share with the readers and not merely degrading others in their writings. Sadly it's not always the case.


It strikes me that being in the allowed age to vote, some of my peers actually said that they are not going to register as voters. Why? I really don't get it. This is not meant for any particular person if you think I'm talking about someone specific. Nope, this is a general disscussion.

->some say there's no point in doing so. I say there are thousands if not millions of points to do so. Like it or not the government is the conductor who orchestrate most, if not all that happens around you. From the prices to the policies on education, healthcare, foreign relation, your freedom, rights, etc.

->some say politic's 'dirty', so choosing to be 'clean' therefore plies having to do anything with it, be it to the merest voting. I say politics is just the system put into place. The perception or facade of a system is based on the people in it, and on how they choose to play their roles in it. Not having your say just mean that you don't even get a say on who plays on the field. So stop complaining of it being dirty if you can't even care enough to open your mouth and name those who can actually try and 'clean' it.

->some say they couldn't care less. Well i think they should. You are a chip of the massive component in the country. who can choose. So you should choose what is best, with an informed choice. And I'm not saying it is only 1 side that is exclusively and undoubtedly right. YOU are right, and whoever you choose based on what you believe and what you see.

but after it ends, and after the election and the leaders are named. Do your best to be part of the country, not part of the party that you rooted for. At the end of the day, it is still our beloved country that needs to move forward and achieve developments, whoever is in the cockpit.

AND, what I say is just what I believe, please do not be offended. You can offer your thoughts if you don't agree with me, and we can agree to disagree but still smile at each others. And my views may seem naive~ well I'm 23. You should get my entry level insights...